i can imagine

Can you imagine, you love someone but that person didnt know about it and he didnt love you but love someone else ? it so hurts for me. for today i can feel it. if you were me, what did you do ? and when you know he just thinks the little girl who doesnt know what. i just him to know the truth that i love him -,- .i am very ashmed to say. but i dont want him to read this. i just want to spill my heart is in this web .this make me traumatized to love someone. especially love the experince of the past. firts, i had boyfriend who thought he was very nice and friendly to all people. i think about living with him less than 3 months, after that i knew he was either just in front of me. i know he was affair with another girl. i am shocked when i found out he had 4 girls who loved, including me. -,- 


give me a spirit that i may not insecure anymore.

i am a jealous girl, frightened, and insecure in all. and one more because its all i'm afraid to love someone. 

love,

nadirasamanta